I haven’t been truthful…
I am a complete nasty wreck of a mess.
A crying, sniffling, shivering, scared, worried, prideful mess. I know all the things I write in my blog to be true. I know God has everything under control. I know He has huge plans for my life, plans that include me traveling to Zambia this summer. But I find myself scared and stressed about life right now. Sometimes I use this blog as my own personal pep-talk. And I don’t know how He is going to get me to Africa. And I’m scared of feeling stupid and embarassed if I don’t get there. There.
Lots of prayers for me please. I am feeling overwhelmed. I am feeling like a failure at giving things over to God, which is making me feel more overwhelmed. How silly…I can’t figure out how to give my problems and stresses over to God which in turn are becoming other problems/stresses. “Silly girl, I love you…don’t worry.”
God needs to break my walls down. All of them. And I need to let Him. Pray that I figure out how to let Him. I’m praying that too.
be full of love