Don’t get me wrong. I adore my family and friends. But I love nights when I just get to hang out by myself. I know lots of people who can’t stand it. Who hate going shopping by themselves or watching movies alone. I freakin’ love it. Especially the shopping part. I can poke around through the racks for as long (or short) as I want to & then I can leave. I feel like I have been constantly going for the last few weeks and I just wanted a mellow night alone. I played guitar, lit some candles, ate some junk food, watched The Hills and am currently listening to the Greg Laswell station on Pandora~ so amazing by the way.
I am so so so very excited for that time in my life when I find someone to love who loves me back. But I am not there yet, so I am just gonna pause right here at this moment in my life and enjoy the vanilla candles, the good music, the messy hair, the potato chip grease that I am getting on my keyboard right now, & the loneliness. It’s good to know being lonely doesn’t have to feel awful. It can be a time to refuel & refocus. To learn how to be independent. I mean, I am living with the “roomates” (parentals) right now so I have no bills really, but I mean independent in my heart, in my mind. I know that I can fly solo & be okay. That feels nice. I am in a really good space right now & I am so thankful for that. I feel like God is helping me to learn more about myself right now. I don’t have to rush at all, just take it day by day or even hour by hour. I can feel myself slowly transitioning out of the waiting for something else to happen or waiting on another day to get here & just having fun & enjoying where I am; by myself, surrounded by kids or piled on the couch with my best friends. I am glad I’ve found this place…I feel like Miley Cyrus would be proud, cause after all…it’s the cliiiiiiiimmmmmbbbb!!!
be full of love.